Yo!

So Lindsay is, sigh, I love her with all my heart. Lindsay just has a way to get to me in a way nobody else ever has.

So she's in Lehi now, staying with her Uncle and such. She has a dog now, a Golden Retriever/Boxer mix named Ruddy, which smells like Cherry Blossoms because she just gave him a bath. She's still always so busy, but I honestly feel like she's trying harder to talk to me when I try to talk to her, and I feel like she's making an honest effort to see us work. Let's see... she's trying to get her Driver's License right now... Um... she says she misses me and us and I know I miss her and us as well... She says she loves me, like in the way that makes me happy, when she just says, "I love you," not, "Love you." I like seeing that she loves me lol. I learned something new today... Everyone knows of me out where she is, like her Aunt and Uncle and Grandma and such, her Aunt is even envious of the ring I bought Lindsay and Lindsay told her Aunt that she'd marry me. Lindsay said she'd MARRY ME! Wow.. that just blows my mind lol. She told me that on the phone, I called during my lunch and expected to just get the voicemail but by the second or third ring, she picked up and I was surprised lol. After we got off the phone I text her:

So... (Me)
So what (Lindsay)
So you'd marry me? (Me)
Lol i thought you would already know that much (Lindsay)
Lol I didn't know before now I love you so much (Me)

Ah I love her so much.... She's definitely someone who completes me.. I would be happy to marry that woman But I want to wait to make sure I have a good setup before I ask her... I don't want her to live a life that would make her unhappy, I want her family to be envious of her I want nobody to question what we have, ever again. That silly girl of mine...

Another little blip about our conversation revolved around My Song For Lindsay, ahem, Our Song as she put it

Is there any way you can send me our song so I can put it as my ring tone? (Lindsay)
I love you more! And you mean my song for you right? Sweet Pea? (Me)
Our song lol and yes thats the one (Lindsay)
Ah I love you so much! (Me)
MWAH (Lindsay)
Mwah Mwah Mwah!! (Me)
Lol silly boy (Lindsay)
Lol I'm all yours (Me)

Incase you're wondering, the song is Sweet Pea by Amos Lee, I first heard it a couple weeks after we started dating and it just fit Lindsay to a T.. lol she really is such a silly girl and I love her with all my heart. I'm going to end this on a good note, with my head up in the clouds lol.

On a side note, I've been talking to this girl named Karin. She's Katie's friend and we first started talking through Katie when they were headed to Rocky Mountain Raceway. She likes drag racing, but LOVES cars in general. She's 17 and has 5 older brothers. I know that one of her brothers has a 12.9 sec Honda Civic Hatchback, and another brother has two Second Gen RX-7s. She has a 1995 Neon with new heads, cold air intake and it's chipped. We have an upcoming race together lol, my Red 1990 Nissan 300ZX VS her Neon... lol. It's cool though, we're also going up to RMR together, she's riding with me because I don't know the way lol. She said we'd have to get up there early to help her brothers change into their Slicks, I said it's no problem lol Long story short, she's way cute and way cool.

Lauren, a friend from Myspace California, has been texting me alot too. She's cool. Nuff said.

Angie and I are talking a lot too, I told her we need to get to know each other again, like we used to when we'd be on the phone till 3Am lol. She agreed, which I'm glad for lol.

Katie and I are still talking a lot too. Lol I had this forward that I sent to everyone telling them they have one hour to ask me any questions they want, she asked if I still had a crush on her haha. I said, well yeah of course lol. That's the last I heard about that haha. I'm surprised she still remembered that... it's been like 2 years now.

Shayla is still Shayla, we're good friends and we're keeping it that way. We're supposed to be hiking up a canyon on the 4th of July, a whole bunch of us, and she's bringing her dog lol Since she promised her and all. She's cool.

Fredy and Shaelynn are still together and themselves, they're cool but I try to limit time around them sometimes.. Makes me miss Lindsay more, you know? They're cool though, we all might be going to school together pretty soon.

Well I think that's a long enough spill about life right now. Just one last detail, the red 1990 Nissan 300ZX is mine completely again, just need some wheels and it'll pass it's safety. The blue 1990 Nissan 300ZX is still sitting, BUT I might be getting my front clip for way cheap pretty soon. The red 1992 Nissan 240SX is still sitting too, but it'll be moving it's residency pretty soon, either to Riverdale with Fredy, or to Lehi with Lindsay. And last but not least, the white 1976 Datsun 280Z is going to be coming home in like two weeks. I think that's about it when it comes to cars and business.

Later yo's.

Christopher.

I'm going to make this short.

I graduated today. Long story short, no Lindsay, but I didn't think she'd come anyways, she did send me a cute text that made me smile though, she's trying gotta give her credit for that. Let's see, my Aunt Ann was there, my Grandma Betty and Grandpa Ed were there, My mom, sister, dad, and friends Fredy and Shaelynn were there. There was also Sarah, my brother's girlfriend, Hector, her son and Ruben, my brother and her son. It was pretty fun, exciting for sure. I talked to this chick named Jessica, she was cool, but she's engaged lol. Um... After graduation ceremony we went to Chinese Gourmet, all you can eat Chinese, yum. Afterwards I'm home and such. Our cap and gowns were green and white and we were class of 08.

Later yo's.

Christopher.

PS, Lauren is very "promiscuous," as she put it lol, she's a new friend from Utah that moved to California, we've been talking and we're alot alike in many ways. Long story short, the end. Later!

I just decided that once I'm done paying off my cars, I'm going to buy a new laptop, specifically for artwork. I miss drawing and such, so I am going to do a lot of work and scan it onto there and get better. I told Ali cause well, she inspires me to do more art work lol. She's an amazing artist and it just made me take a look at my stuff and wonder why I stopped. Anyways, off to work now.

Later yo's.

Christopher

Well I don't really know where to begin... Lots has happened since my last post.

I got my diploma, sorta, I got all my work done and the graduation ceremony is on Thursday, so I get to wear a cap and gown and such, kinda fun, getting to experience what I missed. I finished my last test last Thursday, June 19th, and got the results Monday morning, the 23rd. Turns out I passed with a 90% on my test, way to go me. Since then I went to the DATC and have begun the registration process... I'm going to look at taking Radiology and Automotive Technology.

Back up a day or two now. On Sunday I went to church, way to go me... I mentioned it already but I felt it was important enough to mention again. I have thought honestly about this Mission business... I also read a book that Ali suggested to me, The Alchemist, it talked about following your heart and putting faith in God, it helped me a lot to reach a decision... I am going to do the same and put my faith in God and leave this small world of mine. I've told my parents about this Mission business, my dad figured I would but my mom seems like she's against it. Katie, Angie, and Drea all kinda helped me to get that push to do it, all in their own way..

My family returned from Idaho, not much has changed I guess..

Fredy is just about done with his 1990 Nissan 300zx TT, just the last few adjustments and it's good to go.

I had a chance to talk to Lindsay on Monday.... I guess she and her step-mom got into a full on fight, not just an argument. We asked how each other's lives are and I told her she's never apart of mine anymore, then I went on to tell her all thing things she's missed in just the past week... Finishing school, buying a car, work work work, Fredy and Shaelynn splitting and getting back together, my family leaving and returning, my brother going to jail, starting college and last but not least... Thoughts about going on a Mission. When I had first said that she just kinda kept talking saying that she'll do better to keep in touch and then she was like," woah woah woah hold up go back! You're thinking about doing what???" I told her again with more of firm tone, she then said, "If you go on a Mission, I'll marry you the second you get back!"

We talked some more, she told me she was going to be leaving her friend Whitney and Tyler's house, since her uncle doesn't like the idea of a guy being there, and moving to Lehi, about an hour drive in my 300ZX, she said she's going to be staying there the week and possibly moving there.... with the other possibility as Florida by the end of the summer... She said she doesn't want to leave me here but she can't ask me to just up and leave everything going on here just to move to Florida with her. I told her it's not a big deal, I move a lot and my roots are made to be uprooted, she still said no, especially if I was thinking about going on a Mission... She could just stay and wait at her mom's house in Tallahassee, Florida till I returned.

We talked some more, we talked about her 240SX, and how I'm going to sell it if she doesn't come to work on it and see me. I kept offering all I had to her, but she just kept saying she doesn't want to take everything I'm working so hard for... she doesn't realize that I'm working hard for her and by not accepting anything I do, it hurts more then ended up with nothing. Anyways, she wants to drive the Nissan 240SX, but we need to work on it, which I don't want to do unless she can commit herself to doing it.

We talked some more about us talking some more, about her actually getting back to me when I leave messages and calls... She said she knows she needs to do better about that and that she'll try harder... so far it's pretty much the same... Even with all this freedom she's newly acquired, she doesn't use it to get to me, what does that show? Even when I don't have freedom, I'm breaking my back to do anything that would get me closer to her... Maybe we just don't mean the same to each other..

Anyways I don't think anything else is going on. I am getting the Datsun in two days, hopefully I'll be able to make that my daily driver, fix up the 240SX and make that drivable, and then my parents won't care if I keep it. I want to keep it, but only if Lindsay becomes a part of it, if not, then I'll just sell it to Donnie at work.

Later yo's.

Christopher.



PS, I've come to realize that Ali is an amazing person, we have very great conversations, very challenging and engaging. She's a lot of fun and I hope we're friends for a like time like I've been with Shaelynn. Just felt like I'd throw that in there.

I just don't know where life will lead me next... Let's see... where to start....

Lindsay moved out... Apparently she and her step mom got into an argument and Lindsay left and is living with her friends Tyler and Whitney, I guess... She hasn't talked to me more then one text since the day she told me she moved out, which was last Thursday or Friday I believe... Anyways long story short, she said she doesn't want to move in with me because she isn't ready for that step. So since that day she's texted me... once I think? I'm ready to give her an ultimatum... Sadly....

Let's see what else... Church business has moved along quite quickly lately. I blessed the sacrament today, it was kinda nerve wrecking, but I did it. Not as bad as I thought it was going to be, gladly. I was approached by my bishop and he asked if I've thought about going on a mission yet. I told him flatly not right now. So we went our separate ways and such. I was curious later on about this thing called a "Dance Card," and about a Temple Recommend, and my Patriarchal Blessing. So I went to talk to the Bishop after church and such. He told me that I would have to wait on a Temple Recommend, only get a temporary one so that I can do Baptisms for the Dead, which I'll possibly be doing July 2nd. After that we talked more about the Patriarchal Blessing, which I got my recommend for, so I'll get to have that read to me. Then he brought up a Mission again.... We talked about it, he told me different ways it could be funded for me because I'm the only member in my family. Just lots of stuff... Long story short, I have decided to have a sit down and really think about going on a mission... This has to do with the ultimatum I mentioned earlier...

Other then that I've just been helping Fredy with his 300zx, talking to Shaelynn when she needs to vent and such, had really great discussions with Ali, talked to Katie and Shayla much more, and Angie too. All the while, talking less and less to Lindsay... Katie thinks I need to just move on when it comes to Lindsay, Shayla is hopeful things will work out, Angie... doesn't really seem to care too much. Life is just life right now....

Angie and I had a discussion about me going on a mission,  I guess she was under the impression that I wasn't willing to make sacrifices needed to go on a mission, and that's how I found out that Angie has heart problems! She said she has to wear a heart monitor, she passes out and can't breath. She called that the important stuff and called it good. She said she's doing ok. Then she had to go.

Life's just being all sorts of crazy, big time lol. I'm thinking of getting a Harley, a Soft tail Standard, Boss Jimmy from work suggested it. Well I'm out of things to put on here, just had to clear my head, you know?

Later yo.

Christopher.

PS, I get my diploma tomorrow, awesome huh?

PSS, if you're wondering what a "Dance Card" is, it's given to the Youth in the Wards so that they can go to different Ward Dances and be allowed in, apparently I'm too old to go to these dances and I have to go to the Singles Wards Dances... Ok lol.